We are born knowing nothing. Most beings come into this world with physical instincts such as breathing and movement. Even though most parents eagerly await the arrival of their new addition and they love their child before it’s even born, no one comes out knowing they are loved. Love is something we are given. Feeling loved is a blessing and a gift but it is not something every being is given. There are so many circumstances in life that create a situation where a person is not given love or given the correct kind of love. I don’t want to go into traumatic situations. The ones that cause horrible retributions on lives. I want to talk about simply feeling loved in general. I’ve talked before about growing up in a house that places people in categories and that I was placed into the “needy” category. It took me a long time to realize that I was very different from the other members of my family. Not in a negative way, I just needed to feel things differently than the rest of the people in my home. As an adult and now a parent myself – I know my parents loved me. That time in my life growing up on a different love level did affect me then as well as my adult life. It had such an effect on me that I had to reason with it and investigate how to handle how I felt about then and how I feel about it now.
Coming to terms with your need to feel loved can be a long process. It’s an important one and I feel a lot of us have never thought about it. I believe there are so many in life that believes that what they’ve been given is the way being loved is how we are supposed to feel. I’m not even talking about how WE feel when we say I Love You. I’m not even talking about loving ourselves. I’m talking deeper… How we feel with the love anyone gives us. When someone says to you “you are a wonderful person,” “you are amazing,” or even the big one “I love you” how deep in your soul do you believe it? I’ve grappled with not understanding why people like me. Grappling with why people love me…I mean really love me, sometimes was something I had to deeply investigate. I love easily. I revel in true friendships, partnerships, and parenting relationships. I also get hurt very easily because when I LOVE, I love from the deepest part of my heart. I’m in it to win it. That is because I love to feel love back. Let me say that again… PEOPLE LOVE TO FEEL LOVE BACK. It’s affirming. It gives meaning but it does come with the risk of being hurt. I would like to challenge you. Look inside, deep inside. Find out if you trust people enough to feel their love. If you find that you don’t – investigate why. It may go back to learning it after you were born that empty slate.