March 2022

I believe in being a positive person.  When something happens in my life that causes me confusion and delay,  It may cause me pain in my heart and I may even cry.  When I cry about something negative that has happened it is typically from deep in my soul.  I have to understand why this has happened.  The soft person in me wants to desperately figure out how I could have fixed it or why I caused it.  Once the initial pain and hurt is gone I go inside and try to logically understand the situation.  I examine the situation from all sides.  If I can not find the answers, I have no choice but to face it with a positive angle.

I have to say that even 10 years ago I may have caused someone else pain.  I had a situation where I was being verbally attacked by a best friend.  What she was saying made no logical sense to me.  I turned and was ready to embark on a mutual engagement when I saw her face.  It wasn’t a face of pain or hurt.  It wasn’t a face of confusion and a need to reconcile.  It was a face I’d seen before…In myself.  Suddenly I realized my life needed to change.

We are put on this earth to grow our spirit until it’s next turn to continue to grow in the next area that needs repair.  My spirit stepped out of me that day.  I looked back at myself and I realized as tough and strong as I wanted to be, she told me that is not who I truly was.  I had been reacting to the life I was living up to this point.  My life as a child, My life in my parents home, my life choices and I had to treat my soul with the respect she begged for.

You can live in the past or you can grow.  You can choose to be that person who covers your fears with threats or the person who your true heart aches to be.  When facing the negativity in life offer grace to one another ~ not pain.