February 2022

There are so many storms we face in life.  Those include several thing such as personal growth into adulthood,  health, love, jobs, family and finances.  Sometimes we live in perfect harmony with the way the wind are blowing in those storms.  Sometimes there is a a strong sandstorm happening in our brains because the external world around us has taken control and we have no choices.

I’d like to think that everyone could be like a dandelion seed and just float on a breeze in that storm.  Landing and taking bloom in the summer sun.  Basking up the glory of sun and allow those rains help us grow.  It’s unfortunate that some of those seeds mutate, land in an area where it’s not wanted and is killed or not even allowed to take off at all.  When those seeds do bloom some are admired for their beauty, some are admired for their tenacity to make it but some are simply too tired to turn their glowing flower upward to be seen by those walking by.

There are beautiful flowers who have grown tired from pain, emotions or lack of understanding.  They settle themselves deep in the growing grass and become even more buried in pain and emotion.  I am one of those flowers right now.  I’m tired and emotionally drained from the last two years of pain, physician misdirection.  I have been researching every angle I can find that may help in some way.

I have amazing friends and family.  I had an amazing example in my father.  Before he passed his signature saying was “Beth Ann, it all works out in the end.”  He’s right and I know that.  No matter how it ends  it will end how it is supposed to.  I won’t let it end without my free will working hard to unbury myself.  There is always someone who has it worse than me.  Always.  I think of those souls and I know that while my situation is bad, the love in my heart worries for them.

I wait for the lawn to be mowed so my beautiful dandelion can feel the sun.  Each time it happens I will work hard to lift my stem and turn my face toward the sun.  I know it’s my duty to grow this beauty so I may send out wonderful seeds to the rest of the earth.  To face all of the storms with positivity even if I get overgrown by the grass on occasions.  Those rains will nourish me.